Hello, everyone!

So, yeah...instead of doing my calculus homework, or quizzing myself on cat anatomy, I decided to write a journal message as it has been almost over two months since my last entry. Aren't I nice?

Anyway, school year's starting off a little rough for me. I only have three classes to worry about, but one of them, Comparative Vertebrate Anatomy, is eating up 90% of my study time. It's a very interesting class, but it is soooo much info! You have to know literally everything they teach you in that class. Still, at least our teacher and his TAs are awesome and know what they're talking about. Not to mention my TA is so geeky like me, I love it xD (She even plays music for us while we're dissecting things...it definately lightens up the mood of the room!)

Anyway, some new and exciting stuff though; I finally posted the second chapter of my first SF fan fic! After X number of years! Yay! ^^ *too embaressed to say how long it really took* This is the fan fic which includes my OC character Aki (You can see my ameteur drawing of her here xD [link] ) You can find it on fanfiction.net, but here's the link for your convenience ^_^ [link]

Please feel free to read and enjoy; I'll update this and my other SF fanfiction whenever I have free time...which won't be until spring break (I'm a science major...there is never such thing as free time, lol ). Also, look forward to some drawings by me in the future. I intend to draw my own deviantART ID soon, as well as various other doodles and sketches I can think of.

With that said, I'll end this relatively meaningless journal entry and get back to work on studying/memorizing the muscles of the cat. Joy

Ja ne! ^_^

Happy Holidays, everyone!^_^

Wow, I can hardly believe that Christmas is right here already I just realized that today was the day before Christmas. Yeah...ever since getting back to my hometown for break, I have been completely and utterly lazy. Well, not completely. I did finally post something- My second fan fiction that is on here and on fanfiction.net! I also thought about putting my first Star Fox fan fiction on here (entitled Under the Desert Sun), but I realized that it might not be appropriate for deviantART. In other words, violence, a little bit of smut...and yeah, more violence xD Buuut, you can find it on fanfiction.net along with Into the Sky So Blue :3 Keep in mind, however, that this fan fiction takes place in the Star Fox universe, but does not involve the actual Star Fox team. I suppose it falls more under "Anthro" fan fiction, but oh well

In other news, I survived school relatively unscathed. Lowest grade was a C+ in Organic Chemistry, which was to be expected I got a B in the corresponding lab class, which was a little depressing, but I was just glad that I never have to put up with my annoying, angry Indian TA who always loved to yell at us in a thickly accented voice that we could never understand oO; I aced Biodiversity with an A, though, so that's friggin' sweet >D And I got a B-friggin'-plus and precalculs. Whoo! Now onto kill myself next semester with Life Science Calculus....fun!

And now it is best that I stop rambling and log off so I can attempt to get some sleep. I've been having some restless nights as of late, and I think it's due to the absence of someone quite close to be. But I'm not too worried, yet. If it's anything like the last time, then his internet has just crapped out on him for the Xth time xD

Look forward to another update for my SF fan fiction over the break! ^_^ And may you all have safe, wonderful holidays with friends and family. (Also, pay you get what you've been wanting this Christmas! *has her fingers crossed for a Wii with Brawl* X3 )

So...yeah. Lately I've been a little worried. Not about school, nor the oncoming tropical storm that's looking to brush us come tomorrow. It is because I haven't seen a close friend of mine online for nearly a week. I am pretty sure that is because his computer probably broke...but still, with what has been happening around me now, I can't help but feel a little paranoid Probably just my imagination running away with me again (it tends to happen quite often)

Anyway, I'm writing this entry now since Fay is looking to dump a bunch of rain on us and it is possible that I might lose wireless here for a bit. And since our PC crashed and is (hopefully) getting repaired by the guys of Firedog at Circuit City, my only connection to the interwebs could be very well cut off until I return to the campus dorms this weekend. I just wanted to say that I finally finished the first chapter of my second Star Fox fan fiction, Into the Sky So Blue, and that once it has been peer edited by a couple of friends of mine, I will see if I can post the introduction and Chapter 1 here on dA and then again on fanfiction.net. Assuming that I still have access to the internet, I should hopefully have it up by Wednesday or Thursday...possibly a little later. Keep checking back ^_^

As for my first fanfiction that kinda sorta takes place within the Star Fox universe...yeah, it's still on hiatus I have one chapter up on fanfiction.net, but it has been forever since I last updated it. There are plenty of reasons why I haven't gone on to write more of it, including (but not limited to): 1) Lack of inspiration, 2) Lack of planning for the plot since I wrote it impulsively, 3) School, and 4) Being just plain lazy Rest assured, it is not dead by any means. I am currently on chapter three, but I am still revising chapter two and fixing up some things before I post it. I will post Chapter One of Under the Desert Sun here on dA after I post my second Star Fox fanfiction for those of you who are interested in reading it.

Also, one more note about updates. Once I post my fanfictions, I will try to be a little more consistent about updating them (my goal is once every week to two weeks...a month at thet very most). However, since I am returning to school, the chances of me updating are going to drop to rarely, if ever. So far, I only have five classes to worry about (which adds up to 14 credit hours). But two of those classes will require my full attention; Organic Chemistry I and Bio II: Bio diversity...*cringes just thinking about them* I will also be doing some volunteer work for local Humane Society. So, yes...I will be very, very busy in the upcoming weeks x.x Still, I am planning on trying my best in school and will try to keep up with updating whenever I can. In addition, I hope to post even more cute and silly artwork of mine as well ^_^

Anyway, that's it for me. Wish me luck as I go charging in to another interesting and crazy semester of school! (Hmm...I wonder why I'm even smiling about this? xD; Oh well...might as well have a positive attitude about it!)

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UPDATE: Fay is officially a dud Our town wasn't even hit. And everyone's making such a big deal out of this wussy storm...Bleh, probably easy for me to say since I live inland and 2 hours away from any beach

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ANOTHER UPDATE: Fay is officially not a dud -_- I think I brought some bad karma upon myself for saying Fay's a dud, and now it's dumping a whole bunch of rain on us Ooops :3; Meanwhile, I should really start packing my things for school....

Oh yeah, and I finally managed to beat SF Assault! Woot...the queen aparoid thing was a real bitch though

...And I did good! >D My grades stand as thus:

~General Chemistry II : C+ (bah, stupid jerk professor x3 The points said that I should have a B but he probably cut off somewhere. Oh well..all I needed was a C or higher. Now I can take Marine Biology and never worry about General Chemistry again!)

~General Chemistry II Lab: A (No more anal/mean spirited stock room guy to put up with and no more experiments with ambiguous instructions! Whoo! )

~Wind Ensemble- Symphonic Band: A (der xD)

~Oboe Principle: A (again...der xD)

~Introduction to Psych Science: B (not bad considering the amount of material I had to stuff in my head and that the tests were considerably harder than normal for an intro class)

~Composition I: B (I was unfortunate enough to get a teacher that graded very hard. She taught me a lot and was a good teacher, but none of my papers seemed to please her much. Not even a paper that she said was an 'A' paper. Meh..oh well. I'm better at writing stories and fiction anyway )

~Introduction to World Religions: A (Kyaa! I kicked some arse on the Abrahmaic Traditions Test...considering that I fell asleep through most of the lectures about it xD Nothing but a big history lesson, really. Though I had fun in the class and at least learned more about Hinduism and Buddhism, as well as some of the Chinese religions/philosophies ^^)

All in all, I managed to crank out a GPA of 3.34, enough to be in good academic standing and keep my scholarship. So, all in all, I have officially made it through my first year of college and have now achieved the rank of a sophomore! Whoo! Party time!

...Or is it? 'Fraid not, actually. Now I have to take a summer course. Either Biology I- Cellular Processes or Psychological Statistics (for my minor); it all depends on whether or not I can get into the Bio class. And then at some point this week I'll have to start job hunting and then pick up the oboe to start practicing again. But not to worry; despite one class and a job, I'll still have plenty of free time to write and maybe draw a few fun drawings :3 I've been working on my two Star Fox fanfics and lately I've been considering writing a fan fiction for Gargoyles as well ^_^ It's amazing that I never got to see the show when I was a kid...but now I'm making up for it!

Well, enough of my ramblings. Come next journal update, I should have chapters ready for both of my Star Fox fan fictions. Till then, ja ne!

~Molly

Do you ever get that feeling of loneliness, even when surrounded by friends? I mean, I know that I've got family and friends, both online and in the real world, that are rooting and supporting me while I tackle things at college, but sometimes I start feeling really isolated. Such as now.

It's finals week right for me now, so I've been doing my usual cramming. Needless to say, I've been in my dorm since Saturday either making flash cards and writing notes, or lazing about. But it wasn't until last night that I kind of had a nervous breakdown while studying for my Chem. final. It was scary. I tried to start studying the material after my music jury yesterday, but every time I sat down to study it, I couldn't concentrate. Not even when I went to study some of the material with a friend (who couldn't concentrate either). It was like my brain couldn't take any more information, or that some inner part of me just flat-out didn't want to study Chemistry. I finally broke down after sitting at my desk for a with a blank look and plopped down on my bed to rest a bit. At first I was inwardly chastizing myself for not studying the material earlier on and for waiting until the last minute to study it, but then my thoughts started to drift . It was then that I realized that I was starting to feel lonely...almost like I was completely isolated from everyone. And it wasn't something that an online chat with a close friend could fix...I guess you could say that I needed actual physical comfort. The more I thought about it, the worse I felt.

Eventually I slumped back to my desk and started making a couple of cheat sheets for the test, but I finally crashed at 1 AM and sure enough, those same thoughts about loneliness came back. I was probably up for a full hour that night feeling something beyond just sad...probably a little anguished...and was at the mercy of my thoughts which were just flying around in circles. I eventually fell asleep, only to wake up at 6 AM for more cramming (because my Chem. test was at 8 AM x_x). I believe today was the shittiest I ever looked x3; Seriously...I had such a bad case of sleepy/racoon eyes that if you cut my hair, styled it, and put me in jeans and a white T-shirt, I could pass myself off as a some-what tanned Ryuzaki from Deathnote.

So...yeah. For the most part I've been feeling really down as of late and I know it's probably because I'm eager to go home for the summer before I start summer classes here in May (*is praying to get into Biology, otherwise it's Psychology Statistics for her Psych Minor* x3). But I can't help but think that the feeling I felt was more than just a need to see family and friends again...Hmm...perhaps during study breaks I'll meditate on the issue for a while.

....So, yeah, now that we've had our daily dose of emo, please know that I'm not uberly depressed (as in clinically "I-need-Prozac" depressed). Just an update of how things have been since I've been silent since February. I've still got two tests to study my butt off for and I've gotta get all my stuff put away and cleaned up so I can move out of the dorms on Friday (and away from my crappy and rude roommate...yay! >D). Hopefully by tomorrow or at least the end of the weak I'll feel better and will be back with more random art and fanfiction.

Ja ne.

~Molly

(I think it's time I paid a visit to the on-campus Ben & Jerry's for some comfort food...ladies, you know what I'm talking about xD)
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(Also, kudos to those that actually read my very long and rambling journal entries ^^ I write them mostly for my sake, but it's good to know that people actually care to read them)